through. people will tell me, you know, yeah, i know. if i tell them it's hard for me, they'll be like, yeah, i know. >> but they don't know. >> you don't know. >> somebody who's been paralyzed, and let me come to you, this is every mother's nightmare. this is your son. he's 17, as he was at the time. and suddenly his whole life changes. i guess your first feeling is, thank god he's alive. and then you have to deal with the fact that he's paralyzed. what was it like for you as his mother? >> it really didn't happen that way. it was -- i think it was just denial at first. i said, nick was shot. then somebody said, oh, he was shot through the shoulder. you know, you're like, okay, what happened? what is going on? you see it all over the news. and then when i got to the hospital it was a lot different. it was like, wow, this is my son. and i just remember him looking at me and he said, mom, i can't feel my legs. and that was one of the hardest things to hear in your whole life, you know.